PAIN OR BLAME

 

A noise came loud and strong

It was like a heavy medal song!

   And on and on it went

   Loud and louder

      Pounding in my ears,

      And then came the tears!

 

The room shuck

As if I had no luck

Pounding in my ears,

And then

The quietness came

As my mind tried to endure

The madness

That makes oneself

Gravel

At what we do to please

Without little though

Without caring

Of the outcome.

 

Here

In the shadows

I look around

I pour whiskey down,

   Is it all about me?

   Self-indulgent –

   Is what others see!

And I try to think

What is my purpose?

   Answers in a glass –

      A mere anticized stance!

 

But tomorrow is out of sight

It’s not my fault!

I have a perfect excuse

“Was it love

Or was it the rejection?”

At this point

It all seems the same

I must endure the pain!

Then I clear my eyes

I look through the smoke

The ice cracks

My heart pounds

I pour whiskey down,

And I endure the pain,

And I know:

“It’s myself I blame!

 

Thomas Theophilus© July 12, 2026